Things are getting from bad to worst. A close friend of mine, 'C' is having big problems. Those who are close to me will know who i'm talking about. I don wanna blog her problems down cause its very private and i don think she wants everybody to know. Well just for a start, she has a mood problem. Very bad mood swings and its not PMS kind of mood swings. A few friends and I tried to help but she doesn accept help from us. That day we went down to her house, I saw her and I was speechless. It was the first time i saw her like that, and somehow it just broke my heart. I din say much that day, but i remember her saying "Trust me, I know wad I'm doing". Then i ask her wad is she inteding to do and she yelled back at me saying "Wad if I intend to die?" I was stunned and i din say anymore. I should have but some how I was so hurt that I don noe wad to say.

Well later that day, after we all went home, her friend, 'G' called me asking if she was at my house. I told her no and ask her if 'C''s not at home. She told me that 'C' wasn at home and 'C''s mum called her and ask her if 'C' was with us. Apparently 'C' packed a few of her clothes, took most of her stuff and went out of the house. It was about 730pm then. Still remember 'G' telling me what am i waiting for aint I going out to look for her.. N so i did. Took a cab went straight to the beach. Somehow my gut feeling tells me that she was at the beach. Well, I got there and was walking around the beach. I tried calling 'C''s hp but she turned it off. Then i called again and somehow it was on. I think she on it. Well, I called like twice and gave up. Call all the rest and told them to try calling. Well we all did and we also sms her. But guess wad... only I was out searching for her.. the others was at home and 'G' went for tuition. It was already 8plus and it was getting dark. I continued searching, then i got an sms from the others saying that 'C''s fine. So ok, i walked around more hoping to fine her so that i can at least be with her to ensure that she's safe. Then I was asking myself this question, how come she replied the others and din reply me. well i ask one of her friends and they told me that 'C' was irritated by me caz i keep calling. My first reaction was like WTF! Firstly, I only called twice. Secondly, I'm out searching for her afraid that something might happen to her. Its dark at the beach and many fishermen around. Its that wad I get for me nice ?!?

Ok then, I went home. When i got home, another friend msg me saying that she was at home already. Thank God. But I couldn help feeling hurt by wad she did. I was out looking for her, concern and worried about her.. but she din reply me when i msg her. Instead she replied to those that was at home doing their own things. Is that how she appreciate it?
Din want to blog this but my heart couldn take it anymore. Its adding too much weight.. because of that, I din have the mood to study for my exams. I donno how am I goin to score but hopefully I can pass it. It doesn matter if I fail, I will do anything to help anybody who appreciates it. Ok and so days pass and i msg her each day asking how is she.. Well its always the same reply.. fine. One word *splat* tats all. Everytime i talk to her, she's like cant be bothered. Well I gave up talking to her already. Everytime she does that when i talk to her, I get hurt. Seriously those who expierenced will know how i feel.

Right now, If you are reading this 'C', I donno what you are trying to do, but just want to tell you... All of us are not treating you diffrently. We DO NOT look down on you in anyway. We are here to HELP. Especially me. Most of the others have already given up except me. I stood by you when you are having problems. To tell you the truth, 'G' have a thought of not wanting to be your friend anymore. She's says you are giving her headaches. Well, now you know who your friends are. So stop treating us like dirt. We ask you go out, you treat us like dirt and act like you are too high class to be hanging out with us. And worst is giving stupid reasons or excuses. We are all trying to help. You've got to trust us. We will never let you down. I will never let you down. I promise that.

I'm here for you alright. Call me if you ever want to talk or need anything. Just remember, I always by your side when you need me.

Angels East
Angels West
North and South
Just do your best
Guard her while she rest.