I am forgetting you too.
Goodbye, my once loved.

Merry did we meet, Merry did we part,
And Merry if we shall meet again.

I don know what am i talking about. But what i said is how i feel. I'm sorry if it hurts you, my intentional wasn that so i'm not satisfied. I do not see in which way did i hurt you. And so it hurts me when u say i hurt you. But whatever it is, I apologise if i hurt you. Good bye. You will not be seeing or hearing from me for the rest of your life.

Hole In My Heart

My heart aches
Missing you
And wanting to
Scream out your name
Into this vast space where we first met
This place that brought us so close
Is also what makes it so easy to separate
To lose track of you in between casual conversations
And witty quips sent racing through wire
Through time and space
From heart to heart
Until
One day you're no longer there
And I have to face the truth
That this really hurts
And I really felt
Because what we thought was just a game
Became ever so real
And you were what kept me smiling
And hoping
And now that you are not there
To share
Or laugh
For me to cling to at the end of a long day
When I need to reach out
This is when I feel the ache
The incredible void
This hole in my heart
That used to be filled by you

Viv :
I am so happy i am leaving NAC!.Ha!Ops..Out of topic.
Make it another one week and bye bye NAC,no sob story no tearry storry either it's like thanks and bye bye.
Yes i think i was meant to read your blog,so i read it.It's impossible that you cliam your love for me when do you truly know the word or love?
Love is a verb,the true things are actually trust,being with each other not in reality but in the heart.I wish we could be friends too,but i guess i don't feel right in certain places too.Actually i heard something which makes me amused.That's why nothing much forget it.I guess things were meant to be left this way,i entered your path and left.That's it.
It's okay,i walked through it and would continue myself.

Is that all you can say? By telling me what you know about love? Thanks for replying, at least now I have a reason to give up on you. All u remember of me is a choc sundae? Fine with me, then all i shall mean to you is a choc sundae. N yes u did entered my path and left.. but you forgot the middle part. You broke my heart. Deeply because you ignored me. I remembered i told you something the day after u turn me down. I said I would wait for you, but just dont ignore me. This is what happens when you do. i'm not blaming you for anything, but just hope you realise and don go doin the same to others. Best of luck to you.

P/s this would be the last mention of you in any part of my life. Sorry but i wish to forget u. Cause of two simple words. "It Hurts"
good bye.

Viv

I don't know if you will be reading this. You have been giving me the cold shoulders since the say i express my love for you. I donno why or how either. When we first met and I realise that you are fond of me, something in my head tells me to take it easy but i just couldn control myself. I donno why its so hard to give up on you even though we hardly know each other. Guess its "love at first sight". Wonder if you believe in it.

This past months, i have been thinking of you quite alot. That beauty and smile that is upon your face. Then it all started. I ask you if you wanted to go out, you told me you were not free.. Once maybe i thought you were really busy so i guess i would try again. Ever since 23rd of March 2003, you was never free.. wonder y. Still remember, twice i ask you out and u agreed. I was so happy till i couldn sleep that night. But on that day itself, you told me you're busy and couldn go out. Just like that. My heart was shattered. The second time you did that, i told myself i would give up. But everytime I think of you, i wanted so much to cry. I just never knew whats went wrong. Many people tell me that I was crazy cause if I've gotten you, I would suffer cause you are halfway across singapore and it would be very hard to meet. But i would always tell them, its the love that counts. Don ask me why I love you, cause love is a feeling and it cannot be express through words.

But what hurts me the most is the way you can ignore me and give me the cold shoulders. Donno if you are but this is what i feel. Everytime i go NAC, you will give me cold stares and the cold shoulder. Everytime i sms you, 90% of the time you will never reply. You never chat on MSN. I just read your blog, yes dear glad you realise it, you shattered my heart into a million pieces actually even more. So much so that i haven healed in 3 months and i just cant seem to forget you. Whatever kestor told you abt me, i'm sure you know how to judge whether if its the truth or not.

You will be leaving NAC in 1/2 months time and guess we wont be having much contact. So i just had to tell you some things and make it clear to you. i donno if writing it in my blog is the right thing to do but guess its the only way.
Viv, I like you a lot in fact I Love you. As i said dont ask me why, caz its the feeling that is unexplainable. Since its so hard to be even friends than guess its the destiny that has been laid out for us. How lucky am I to known someone that is so hard to say goodbye to. We are just not meant to be together. I'm sorry for all the pain i've given you. In future if you need any help from me or just want somebody to talk to, you know how to get me. Good luck in whatever you do in the future and all the best. I will never forget you. - Hugs -

Argh.. What am i suppose to do? I'm so confuse. Plus everything has to cramp within this time. Lets see what i have,
First, My exams are coming up in 2 weeks time and i'm like only 1/7 through studying. Die!

Anyway went to nac with caryn last yesterday and i walked in to NAC, I waved hi to Vv.. but she dint wave back so i din really bother caz before i went in i already prepared by self not to be distracted and affected by her. So ok the class went well, learn quite a few things. But the worst fact was i was the only guy there lol. And renee had to keep saying Woman are more powerful.. lol kao her.. haha. But it was all really funny lor. ok anyway, i went out to pay after the class and Vv was giving me the cold shoulders again. Fine i was planning to ignore it till Caryn mention it. See ! Even she felt it, so it isn only me. So it cant be biased. Fine! I really really give up. But even though i can put up a false front, my heart is shattering. sobs.

I came across this quote on the net. Cant remember by who but guess it really fits me now.

" Smile, even though your heart is broken " my answer to it is....
I'm trying but it really hurts badly....