Yeahhh ! Tomorrow start school haha cant wait.. so excited.. ahh.. Man.. I like that new linkin park song.. keep listening to it.. haha.. real nice.. Gona dye my hair later waiting for my mom to come back. so bored now. jus finish breakfast haha yeap woke up late prob the last time i can.. tmr must wake up like 630 haha so can be the first in class... then can see got chio bu come in a not.. but confirm not as chio as someone i already noe.. she's so pretty haha..

I bought teenage yesterday and was like reading the famous Dear Kelly section.. then i came across one sms to her that the guy was in the same suituation as me.. sighs. The sms went like this :

I had a stead who broke up with me because of studies. I know she broke up with me because she likes someone else. I still care very mush for her. I have tried to forget her but can't. What should i do?

The reply of kelly was :
Boy oh boy! Please forget this girl. You know she left you not because of her studies but because she likes someone else. She tried to let you down easy. You won't get her back so forget her. You are only destressing yourself. Get more and mix with a group of people. Don't go looking for love. Look for friendship. If friendship develops into love well and good. You are very young and have loads of time to get into a serious relationship. For now content yourself withthe laughter of many friends of both sexes. Friendships last and bring great joy.

You noe she's rite and i guess i'll let this song do wat my heart is saying haha.. Kiss And Say Goodbye by The Manhattans.

~sigh~ Its been such a boring day for me other then me goin out the the afternoon BY MYSELF ! feel so weird walking around TM alone and there were alot of ppl there.. sighs. Mich din come online today she must be busy... My mei came online but she got no mood to talk, i think caz her com got problem sigh.. i'm so bored..

Spent like $40 today.. kao cant believe it.. $10 on stationary , bought two pens and one notebook.. the note book itsself was 5 something haha but its big and think so its kinda worth it.. Then $15 on a billabong pencil case.. almost the same as my last one but this one nicer hee.. Then bought dye erm.. could find honey brown so i found this color nice erm.. its Medium Auburn.. its was on offer lucky me $8.90 only..

Ah... Now 6510 got offer onli $98.. i wanna buy but my mom say don upgrade m1 line not worth.. kaos wat to do .. boo hoo i wanna change a phone.. WAaaaaaa ...... Or should i save till i can afford 6610.. hahas.. O ya my mom say interchange there got second hand phone shop.. i saw a 6600 maybe tmr go see how much is it.. hee cheap then i'll buy then won have to bring an embarassing phone to school on monday.. Yea! Cant wait schools starting.. and starts with the secondary school somemore haha... *yawn* I'm so tired guess i'll go and sleep ... Nites all ...

Somewhere I belong ~ Linkin Park

When this began
I had nothing to say
And Id get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And Id let it all out to find
That im not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
When all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that Ive got left to feel
Nothing to loose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain til its gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And Ive got nothing to say
I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everwhere only to find
That its not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
Cause I cant justify the way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to loose
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain til its gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything
Until I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain til its gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
I wanna feel like Im somewhere I belong

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
I wanna feel like Im somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong

Hmm.. I've got nothing much to say this morning hahas.. feeling quite alrite.. had a good sleep then this morning my senior sms me ask me whether wan to go and see my another seniors play, i said ok since its ok $10 hahass no big deal.. So bored.. later will go cut hair haha.. one more day still school starts.. so excited ahh.. cant wait.. hahas..

Hmm... i always have a song of each day but wad song shall i put today.. okies i think i will put a rock song.. Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park.. Its a nice song. like the way they rap and add the song bit at the end then chester screams like in pain.. watch the mtv its even nicer hahas.

" When you make a sacrifice in marriage, you're sacrificing not to each other but to unity in a relationship" So nice rite.. thats my MSN nick hee.. yawn* so boring now.. taking to mich online and playing dai dee.. so bored.. Was doin some clean up in my room jus now.. haha my room look so much neater.. yea.. gona start school already. so happy cant wait.. yea two more days..

Tmr gona go cut hair, buy hair dye , mich suggested Honey brown.. mayb i'll buy that color if i can find that is haha.. Then need to buy some stationary.. and a pencil box.. gona be so broke.. haha.. the pencil cases at 77 street not that ex rite.. mayb i get from there the same place where i got my last pencil case hahas..
okies lights off gona sleep soon...

Life Is Good ~ LFO feat MOP

Life is unbelievable
Life is unbelievable
~Chorus~

Life is Good, Life is great
Life is unbelievable
Life is hard, Life is cruel
Life is so beautiful
Oh yeah, Oh yeah

Life is unbelievable
Somewhere in Lafayette

on my way to anywhere
A woman named Beatrice serves me coffee
and she smiles as if she cares
It reminds me of this painting
that I think I've often seen
The kings behing the counter
serving coffee to James Dean
~Chorus~

On my way to Garden City

on my way to anywhere
a guy named Patrick gives me directions
and he smiles as if he cares
It reminds me of this movie that I think I've often seen
pretty much this situation except I'd be Steve McQuain
So what would u do if u wake tomarrow
there's no more sorrow
You're dreams came true
so knock on wood and cross your fingers
now count your blessings it might be you
What if you wake tomarrow
and all your grey skies have all turned blue
How many days do u think you're given
so get on livin it's up to u
~Chorus~

If your soul loves the sun, rock rock on
Yo, i be flippin' and rippin' a party 'til the break of dawn
If u love Rich Nice or u hate Rich Nice
Take my advice and just live ur life (cuz it's yours)
A-Yo! My mission is to save the world,
It's a never ending task
I dont know where to begin and i'm feelin'
I'm at an end
I don't wanna live life doin' petty nonsense
It's hard to sleep at night with a guilty conscience
U know it's really a mess? Now i feel blessed
But 20 minutes from now, it will all turn 2 stress
I'm 27 years, On the ground spilt tears
i'm steppin over blood, the sweat, and the tears
Yeah!! Yeah!!
Baby it's on, A mother shed tears
At the same time, a baby is born
On the other side of town, life is lost
A young thug was knocked off and the heat was tossed
Damn! Life is real, it's so trife
but don't stop now, live ur life!
i know it's hell for the rough
But don't talk down on your man unless you're helpin them up
It's Yours!!

Yawn* Darn... hahas forget to place an entry before i log of last night.. was so tired hahas.. I am so happy today also donno why hahas.. caz maybe the first song i played when i came online was life is good.. nice song really cheer me up.. hahas yeap life is good yea.. Haven been talking to mich for a long time... haha she's been so busy lately.. never even update her blog hahas.. poor thing.. Hope she don overstress herself to think that only after prelims then i was as hard working as her hahaha.. still remember everyday after school will go changi airport and study till like 4-5 o'clock with my buddy.. then after school finish for the sec 4's i would study at three locations from dawn to dusk haha.. Macs , library and airport.. stayed overnight at the airport for like donno how many times... To those out there sec 4's this year who are thinking to doin that.. my suggestion is bring two jackets at least.. Its freaking freezing there.. Oya and if u wanna stay overnight u must stay at the viewing gallery.. and there are tons and tons of ppl there during peak periods.. hahas.. so better be there early..

Ok so about the song hahas... Life Is Good by LFO

Friends ~ Michael W. Smith

Packing up the dreams what God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

(CHORUS)
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

(CHORUS)

Slept at 4 last night... haha should have stayed till 430 then can watch tora tora.. my buddy was saying that it is nice so i wonder wat kind of show it was.. Yea today its my dad's bday so cool.. hmm... he's wooo 45 already.. so fast. Last night my stupid mom ask me for money.. haha.. say the present was $19.. then ask me to pay $10 then i calculate tat $19 divided by 2 is 9.50 haha then she said wrapping paper.. idiot rite hahas.. was complaining to my buddy over the phone.. laugh like mad..

Last night something very funny happen.. Ying Xing suddenly msg me and called me Kor! haha.. My mei was also shocked.. hahas.. But ok lor got another mei.. but still closer to caryn.. I told my buddy that went out with my god sis then he was like oOoo GS become GF.. gona kill him one day.. She will now and be forever my god sis.. don wanna risk such a good lil sis.. idiot ben.. but hahaha i also got a thing to distrub him about.. this girl is like I love you to him but jus that they haven met this stupid buddy of mine is thinking of giving up.. i'm gona smack him if he did.. so bad.. If don wan give me la then i can go ahead and try.. haha but i won now caz its his.. buddies shouldn fight over girls... Buddies forever yea !

This song is nice, if u wan to download it u must search for the authors name caz the song name is very popular and many songs have the name inside.. and u might jus download the wrong one.. Friends by Michael W. Smith.

Wow... Really had a good day today.. Went NAC for my reading with my god sis, i realise alot after that.. Then went for Edo Sushi... not bad.. haha don believe it, my mei thinks wasabi is disgusting and she suggested Jap food.. hahas.. Then went to watch Iron Ladies 2, so funny really was a good show... but to bad its in thai so the subtiltles don really show the true humor... Yup... ok got to bath now i'm sticky all over hahas...

Superman (It's Not Easy) ~ Five for fighting

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird:I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd:but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away:away from me
It's all right:You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy:or anything:

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me.

Ah~ Feel much better when i woke up this morning, feel new again.. Hmm... always happen like that haha till the next time it all comes out again, i'm a happy boy hahas.. Meeting my mei today later to go eat swensons haha or maybe wanna watch a movie, donno her la hahas. Woke up like at 12 and then was having breakfast.. Last night was watching part of the soccer watch ermm... Man U versus watever team i don really watch soccer hahas.. but yesterdays match was like super nice, they way they play is very exciting haha.. Wait must go check the score later.. first half already the other team scored 3 goals hahas and bartez was like an idiot..

You noe was thinking about my problems and was saying to myself, I've done wad i could... it jus wasnt meant to be it.. A nice song to remind me that I cant stand to fly...
Superman by Five For Fighting... It aint easy being ME ! I Love Myself hahahas....

I just wanna break down and cry... I'm feeling so hurt and jus wanna cry right now... Y must my life be like that. okies i'm starting to tear.. but everytime it only gets this far.. how much more can i take before i really break, it really hurts. My life sucks to the core. I don get parent's love, no siblings love, no friendship love and not even love from someone that i love.. How can anyone live without love...

Was thinking of everything Karen and I did, Y must she hurt me.. N all i can blame is myself, i force the relationship to go on even thought it should have already ended and in the end i got hurt even worst. Could this be how Norwyn felt?? I really don noe how much can i take this.. i basically have no life, i am lifeless, lifeless, lifeless... LIFELESS ! AH ! I Wanna scream ! I just wanna break down and cry...

Tears In Heaven ~ Eric Clapton

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Had a good sleep last night, hope all my friends have the same too hee. Woke up at around 11 this morning caz my mom was screaming, i think at my brother caz yet again he never did his hw... but do i gif a damn ? NO ! hahas but it did disturb my beauty sleep. Had a dream but cant remember exactly wad is it.. hahas. While having breakfast, peter called ... haha peter's my other buddy, haven been in contact for a long long time.. He's fine and got into shatec, good for him. Both of us were the only ones in class that actually plan for our futures hahas, both of us have dreams.. He has met his first goal but sadly i didn manage to take the first step of my plan due to that bias arts school called Lasalle ! But its ok i'll jus have to go ahead with plan B hahas.. Life is not over. yea!

My mei sent me a email the content is below, so touching almost cried hahas... but i changed the names abit, sorry mei, the names gifs me unplesant memories i'm sure u'll understand mei ; ). Anyway, peter told me Issac (who is my ex's god brother) saw my ex on the train and my guess was correct she has a new bf.. haha good for her. N also issac said that she had a lot of pimples haha good for her also... Now it brings back memories lets jus not talk about it anymore.

One of my fav songs quite suitable for now Tears in heaven by Eric Clapton. I wanna cry now, so SAD ! :' (

A Special Story

Like any good mother, when Claudia found out that another baby was on the way, she did what she could to help her 3-year-old son, Jake, prepare for a new sibling. They found out that the new baby was going be a girl, and day after day, night after night, Claudia sang to his sister in Mommy's tummy. He was building a bond of love with his little sister before he even met her.

The pregnancy progressed normally for Claudia. In time, the labor pains came. Soon it was every five minutes, every three, every minute. But serious complications arose during delivery
and Claudia found herself in hours of labor. Would a C-section be required?

Finally, after a long struggle, Jake's little sister was born. But she was in very serious condition. With a siren howling in the night, the ambulance rushed the infant to the neonatal
intensive care unit at Mary's Hospital, Knoxville, Tennessee.

The days inched by. The little girl got worse. The pediatrician had to tell the parents there is
very little hope. Be prepared for the worst. Claudia and her husband contacted a local cemetery
about a burial plot. They had fixed up a special room in their house for their new baby but now they found themselves having to plan for a funeral.

Jake, however, kept begging his parents to let him see his sister. "I want to sing to her", he kept saying. Week two in intensive care looked as if a funeral would come before the week was over. Jake kept nagging about singing to his sister, but kids are never allowed in Intensive Care. Claudia decided to take Jake whether they liked it or not. If he didn't see his sister right then, he may never see her alive.

She dressed him in an oversized scrub suit and marched him into ICU. He looked like a walking laundry basket. The head nurse recognized him as a child and bellowed, "Get that kid out of here now. No children are allowed." The mother rose up strong in Claudia, and the usually mild-mannered lady glared steel-eyed right into the head nurse's face, her lips a firm line, "He is not leaving until he sings to his sister" she stated. Then Claudia towed Jake to his sister's bedside.

He gazed at the tiny infant losing the battle to live. After a moment, he began to sing. In the pure-hearted voice of a 3-year-old, Michael sang: "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray."
Instantly the baby girl seemed to respond. The pulses rate began to calm down and become steady.

"Keep on singing, Jake," encouraged Claudia with tears in her eyes. "You never know, dear, how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away."

As Jake sang to his sister, the baby's ragged, strained breathing became as smooth as a kitten's purr.

"Keep on singing, sweetheart."

"The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my arms".

Jake's little sister began to relax as rest, healing rest, seemed to sweep over her.

"Keep on singing, Jake." Tears had now conquered the face of the bossy head nurse. Claudia glowed. "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. Please don't take my sunshine
away..."

The next, day...the very next day...the little girl was well enough to go home.

Woman's Day Magazine called it The Miracle of a Brother's Song. The medical staff just called it a miracle. Claudia called it a miracle of God's love.

NEVER GIVE UP ON THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE. LOVE IS SO INCREDIBLY POWERFUL.

Life is good.  Have a Wonderful Day!

I am so tired hahas.. Now i have a habit of blogging twice a day hahas.. once when i log on my com, the other when i'm about to log off.. cool yea.. hahas. Got nothing much to say today caz i'm really tired.. think i'm goin sleep early tonight.. Slept at 3 for the past few days and woke up at about 11 this morning and so *yawn* hahas... So Good nite to all my friends ( as if i've got alot ) and all the animals and all the insects living outside my room in the lawn jus below my window hahas.. love nature.. ; ) Nites All !

Can't Help Falling in Love ~ Elvis Presley

Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you
for I can't help falling in love with you

Woke up at 11 this morning, met seng and then went to ML to collect my check, i'm so freaking broke and i thought i had some more money, ~sighs~ left about $300 plus in my bank donno can last me for how long. Anyways, was walking around TM and saw the M1 deals, so tempting. the 6600 onli cost $368. I had the money in my other account but using it will cost myaccount to be charged $2 per month until i top up till $500.. plus the $500 was my mom's i borrowed from her and its in there to hold my account. ~sighs~ how am i goin into poly with an 3315.. i'm gona be a laughing stock. Was considering the 8250 also, now only $98. But mich says its too ex for tat old model.. wat am i suppose to do. i'm so freaking tempted... Anyways think i will wait a while more for the new promos hopefully a 6510 promo comes up soon hahas drop till $150 plus then i can buy hahas. I'm forgeting about 6600 its too ex, i cant afford it.

Vv msg me on msn told me my stuff was ready for collection... then she went offline ~sighs~.. but i'm forgetting about this girl.at least trying.. She was really nice and i really liked her but wad to do, she rather have a life of attach then break, attach again then break again, than a lifestyle with a guy who will cherish and love her.. Forget it, its her choice not mind.

Song for today, I can't help falling in love by Elvis Presley. Don be mistaken this song was orginally sung by Elvis not A*teens and deff. not F4. Elvis version is the sweetest and the best it really shows the meaning of the song.

Born As: Martin Lawrence
Date of Birth: April 16, 1965
Birth Place:
Frankfurt, Germany
Education: Eleanor Roosevelt High School in
Landrover, Maryland
Factoids:
At 25 August 1999, he collapsed in
to a coma after collapsing from heat exhaustion while jogging. Recovering in
hospital. His ex-wife, Patricia, was Miss Virginia.

Hahas... another face tat i will crack up at... I have a total of 3 idols.. hahas yeap all comedians.. Jim , Rowan and the last one is Martin.. All of them rocks man. they're so funny and watching their shows make my worries go away... a couple of shows i recommand of them is Jim Carrey's Liar Liar , Rowan's is deff his Mr. Bean series, don bother to watch Black adder caz his accent is very strong. And Martin's Big Mama's House and Blue Streak is nice.. *Yawn* so sleepy now... playing tai dee online with my mei and grace... sighs... they are saints man... so late still not tired.. i'm goin knock off soon hahas..

Born As: Rowan Sebastian Atkinson
Date of
Birth: January 6, 1955
Birth Place: Newcastle-upon-Tyne, England,
UK
Education: Newcastle University, Newcastle, UK (electrical
engineering); Oxford University, Oxford, UK
(engineering)
Factoids:
He has two children, Lily and Benejamin. To
prevent being disturbed by fans during his usual holidays in Italy, he did not
want his Mr. Bean movie distributed there.

Forever - Damage

CHORUS
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

You are the sun, you are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night
You're always 'round when I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Want to spend forever with you
(chorus)

We've had our fun, and we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more than I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you

CHORUS
(And girl I pray you leave me never)

BRIDGE:
Coz this is a world
Where lovers often go astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way
So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
Coz I'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

I just want you to know that I can't eat, I can't sleep
I can't breathe, whenever i'm without you
When we walk, I stand tall
When we talk, I only talk about you girl

CHORUS (TILL FADE)

Finally, my blog got a problem so jus ignore the space at the top... I had to leave a space before able to type otherwise the entry will not show.. stupid rite.. Sighs, but jus have to make do. Jus now i type a whole lot of stuff then cannot publish.. so fustrating noe, and i'm like so tired and this stupid blogger must give me this kind of problems. On my first day with the new look of my blog somemore. Anyways was saying tat jus came back from heeren. Was working there as some traffic counter ( Count the number of people walking past ) good pay but super sians job hahas. But better then sitting at home and doin nothing at least over there they pay u haha. Was so hungary while working, dint had a proper breakfast caz i was goin to be late and took a cab down wasted my ten bucks and then when i got there, the person was late. I could have take a train and saved ten dollars, well wat to do hahas. I'm sticky all over think i'll go bath now... but first the song of the day hahas got the idea from mich's blog so cool...

Hmm, today let the song be Forever by Damage.. Nice song.