You represent... loneliness.
Always alone and always sad about it... unlike
angst, you don't have to look for a reason to
be miserable. You want to be in the company of
people but aren't sure how to act when you're
with them. Sometimes you have to make an
effort. You can't always wait for others to
come to you.


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If I can have one wish, I would wish for her problems to be given to me and that she can have an enjoyable and problem free child hood.

-=Keeping the flame burning brightly ever=-

ok.. I finally cried. Or at least for a while. All the problems come together at once. I just cant take it. I haven even memorise any single thing for tmr's PR exam. I'm gonna fail. Even though i told my youngest sister i am studying.. but how am i to concentrate when some one this girl C is having so much problems. This girl C is very close to me and lately her problems are coming up and it affected me greatly. I have a role to play in her life and its not easy.

Found out abt her problem yesterday, was feeling a strange feeling abt her when she was talking to me online. So i called up her friends and then out spilled everything. Not gonna elabrate caz its gonna be very long. Ok so her few of her friends and i decided to go down to see how she is. We were walking towards her house when she saw us and came up to us. She looked terrible. Cant believe what i saw. Her hair is so messed up, her face is so sick looking, I was thinking god wats happen to her. Ok then we had a chat and then she just said she needed to go back so she left. Ok then her friends and i had a little chat and then we went back.
Then when i got back took a shower, C's friend called me asking if C was with me and i said no. Then i said Isn C at home she told me no and her parents are very worried. Then she say aint I goin out to look for her i said yes so i did. Went to the beach couldn find her walk from one point of pasir ris beach to the other end. Still couldn find her. Then there's the time i cried. I got so worried abt her. She doesn pick up my phone, neither did she reply any of my sms. Ok then her friend called me told me that she was fine and i was like how you know. And she told me C msg her. i was still worried walking around trying to find her. Not intending to do anything when i find her but at least stay by her side so that she will be safe. Its not safe for a 15yr old girl to be at the beach at like 9 pm. All the malay horny fishermen are there. Had a bad exp. once so i know. Ok then i went back after the friend told me too. So i did. Then got home was trying to study then the friend called and said that C went back home already. Ok thank God.
Was trying to read and memorise my notes then i keep thinking of C's problems and why am i so useless that i cant help her. I am not fit to be what she look up to me as. Felt so useless. She's in deep pain but i cant do anything. Now, was trying to memorise then just felt like blogging. Mayb it will take it off my mind for a while. I donno what am i gonna do abt C.. but why must it happen when i'm havin exams. God i hate it when you test me. But i'll take ur challenge and bring her and myself though it.



Archangels Michael, Gabriel, Raphael and Auriel. Blessed C with the glory of your shining light. Give her strength, peace, hope and courage. And guide her through this unplesant times. Give her wisdom so that she might realise that her friends are out her to give her support and that she will let us fly her through. Also give her strength to help herself. All is useless if you don help yourself.
O mighty angels, bestowed upon the powers of strength and wisdom to me, Sh and Sthia. Open our senses and hearts so that we may be sensitive enough and give the correct aid to C. Bless and protect C as you have protected me.

With tears in my eyes... -=Keep the flame burning brightly ever=-

Yea, I'm so happy. Last night i made someone happy just by dedicating a song to her. Feel so good now. As mother theresa once said "Let no one come to you without leaving better and happier" I dedicated this song Too serious too soon by Gareth Gates to my forever loving friend mich. Hee. Now i too fall in love with it haha. So nice song. Make me remember somethings that i don wan to remember, about someone. Sighs. But still the song din make me cry. Man was hoping something could make me cry. I'm gonna burst soon. Feel so depressed everytime i think of love. Still don understand what the hell did i do to her. Well, forget it. Now u have fall in love with another, I only pray that you don do the same thing as you did to me. wish you luck. This song is for you....

LOOK AWAY ~ Chicago

When you called me up this morning
Told me 'bout the new love you found
I'm said "I'm happy for you, I'm really happy for you."
Found someone else, I guess I won't be coming 'round
I guess it's over, baby; it's really over, baby, whoa...
And from what you said, I know you've gotten over me
it'll never be the way it used to be
So if it's gotta be this way, don't worry, baby, I can take the news okay
But if you see me walking by, and the tears are in my eyes,
Look away, baby, look away
If we meet on the streets someday, and I don't know what to say,
Look away, baby, look away
Don't look at me; I don't want you to see me this way
When we both agreed as lovers, we were better off as friends,
That's how it had to be, yeah, that's how it had to be
I tell you I'm fine but sometimes I just pretend
wish you were holding me, wish you were still holding me, whoa...
I just never thought, that I would be replaced so soon
I wasn't prepared to hear those words from you
I know I wanted to be free; yeah, baby, this is how we wanted it to be
But if you see me waling by, and the tears are in my eyes
Look away, baby, look away
If we meet on the streets someday, and I don't know what to say
Look away, baby, look away
Don't look at me; I don't want you to see me this way
[Repeat chorus 2x]
When you called me up this morning, told me 'bout the new love you found
I said "I'm happy for you, I'm really happy for you."

-=Keeping the flame burning brightly ever=-

ok.. the paper today wasnt so bad.. I studied and went in with the min. chapters and guess what.. All the chapters that i studied came out.. Cools the angels are watching over me.. Thank you. Hee.. Ok then after paper i got a huge migrane so i went home..

Came back then saw Caryn mei online.. talk to her for a while then it seems she's not in a very good mood.. its been two days already, i keep feeling that she's not alright.. guess its the brother feeling. But i can swear there is something bothering her but she's not telling me wat.. keep saying nothing. Well hope it really is nothing. I'm worried for her. Lets hope tmr she'll be more cheerful when i talk to her.
Ok then had my dinner, then SH mei came online hee.. got so many lil sistas. She seems cheerful but she's stress.. poor thing. Her parents are expecting too high.. Sh ah.. i understand how u feel kaes. Just take it easy and do ur best. Remember I'm here for you.. in fact all of u.. my sweet lil sisters.. Even though we are not bounded by blood. but in my heart u 2 will always be my cute and forever loving sisters. Big hugs to the both of you. :)

Take care and -=Keep the flame burning brightly ever=-

You are Love.

You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of mankind.


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